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Tag: #Life

One Person Ready Meal

You load your items to buy But you are selling Selling yourself to me with every breath you take To mumble the words no one else will listen to I […]

One Liner #3

Writing let’s me meet all the people I’ve been wondering about.

The Truth About University

Whilst doing my A-Levels all my teachers would say ‘University will be the best time of your life!’ Well here I am half way through my second year and I […]

TESTOSTERONE

Finally, as of Friday 7th July 2017, I am no longer pre-T. I cannot describe to you the relief I felt from finally, after over 2 years of battling through […]

Being His Son

I remember writing on this blog how I told my father that I was transgender, how scared I was to tell him, in fact, he was the hardest person to […]

I Feel Tortured

I always thought that the more I was used to transitioning, the methods, the life, it would become easier. Instead, I feel tortured, there is a constant pulse in the […]

Accepting My Sister

Acceptance. It’s an important word. I know, because it’s what I’ve needed most over the past two or so years. When my brother originally told me that he thought that […]

1am

I wish I could hold her in my arms, nothing in the world being able to touch us. Not me feeling like I am constantly lacking something because of my […]

Weighing Up My Options

Being on a waiting list for testosterone has made me think even more about the future, about what I want, surgery wise. I had a dream last night, the doctors […]

Their Hell Is Inside Them

“Their hell is inside them.” (Teresa de Lauretis) I was reading another scholarly article for a seminar I have this week, and on reading those words, I stopped dead in my […]

Can’t Shake This

No matter what I do I can’t seem to shake this, this feeling of nothingness. I feel like nothing, like I’m just existing. I sit in work imagining what it […]

A Full Time Job

I try to write positive posts, try to focus on the good things. I don’t want sympathy, I write here because I have to. Although I haven’t had that feeling […]

The Blank Page I Need

It seems like a lifetime ago I was trying to calm down my nervous girlfriend as we headed off to collect our A Level results. Turns out there was nothing […]

Results Anticipation

In 49 minutes my life will change, or it will stay completely the same. A life changing moment that doesn’t happen too often in a lifetime, this is a big […]

Stuck On Pause

My transition has slowed to a pause, it feels like a waiting game that never seems to end. I approached my GP with a document stating she could prescribe testosterone […]

Am I Enough?

Dysphoria. An umbrella word that covers a lot of feelings. Anxiety, restlessness, anger, sadness. I experience this regularly, some days I deal with it better than others. I go through stages, […]