“This is a rebellion against God’s plan.” – Pastor Jeffress (TruNews)
This last week I have been attending a series of talks given by those of the Christian faith, on various topics; suffering, science etc. Today’s talk ‘Exclusive, intolerant and petty: Why would anyone believe in a Christian God,’ stirred up this question…
“How can my LGBT friend feel like Jesus loves them?”
I would consider myself an Atheist, bordering towards Agnosticism. And yet, as I sat there listening to the speaker’s answer I also felt excluded from this supposed gift of love from Jesus/God/Christianity. The speaker’s answer consisted of the following… he explained that due to his faith he waited until he was married (at the age of 27) to have sex. He further explained that everyone sets boundaries for themselves, although his answer was a bit unclear I gathered that he was suggesting that homosexuality, transgenderism etc. is a boundary that Christian’s believe shouldn’t be crossed. I had one major issues with this.
He was comparing his struggle of chastity with the struggle of gender identity/sexuality.
Personally, my struggle with my gender identity engulfed me – it took up all of my thinking time, impacted all of my experiences, affected my relationships. If resisting the urge to discover my true gender was as simple as resisting sexual urges then I wouldn’t be who I am today.
When considering whether or not I believe in God I hit a brick wall. The main reason being that I feel like I would have to choose between my true self or the Christian faith. I’ve listened to various Priest’s discuss the transgender debate. Most refer to God’s creation of man and woman – there being nothing in between and no way of altering how we were born. God’s intention for humans to procreate.
I want to ask one question – if God is all-knowing, all-powerful and had a clear intention for humanity, then why did he make people like me possible? How is it possible that science has found a way to treat people like me, not in the sense of a mental health issue, but instead fixing what went wrong at birth.
The major reason I feel that God could be possible is because of the soul. My sense of what is right and wrong, my desire to do good and reject immoral actions leaves a door open on whether there is a higher force. If that is the case, I am one hundred percent sure that my soul is male. If our bodies degrade and decompose while our soul goes to heaven, the soul that is our connection to God, which should I trust? The female body I was given at birth that will eventually fall to pieces or my male eternal soul?